You would think that as time passes by it would get easier without you here but the truth is, it doesn't... I think about you all the time, wishin that you were here. I went to your old house months ago cuz someone told me that I need to go there to say good bye to you and that should help me to move on... But it hasn't. I went there to tell you that I'm mad @ you. Mad @ you for leaving me! You told me you never would... I'm sorry Jacob, I can't let you go! I miss you so fuckin much! Why did you have to go and leave me here to deal with this world alone? You know I still can't even go to the trailer park without still breakin down cryin... Things out here are so crazy and out of control... I remember the day I came to your house and I was havin a horrible day and just wanted to give up on it all! But everytime we would sit down to talk someone would knock @ the door and people just kept comin by. You saw that I really needed you so you kicked everyone out, slammed the door, walked over to me plopped down in front of me cross legged on the floor. Than you put your elbows on your knees and your fists under your chin and said "ok,... you now have my undivided attention". Just that alone made my day so much better. You always had a way of doing that...
I miss you Jacob & I love you so much!
Love Your Pierced One
Robin
